i love the way you smell

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 22:40:23 GMT

So here I am again..
I've been avoiding what happened today for a while.
I didn't know how to handle it. I think I did pretty well, but couldn't help my feelings after the fact.
I am disappointed in myself for being somewhat selfish lately.. and not reaching out to someone that was just trying to reach out to me. I have never been one to ignore someone, but I just felt it is what I had to do for the moment.

I'm glad this person still feels so greatly about me. At least I know I will always have a special place in their heart.
It means a lot to me that they keep a positive image of me in their hearts.
Hearing them tell me I'm one of the best people they know really got to me.
It reminds me...I am a great person.

I've had a few slaps in the face lately, but at least I know one thing that is constant: my heart.

I'll always have an amazing heart.. I'll always be selfless and care for others.. I'll always give someone a chance.. I'll always be loyal... I'll always have the same corny sense of humor... I'll always blast music and sing like I actually know how... I'll always love without limits.. and I'll probably always suck at the things I suck at now... who know? no matter what happens in my life... I'll always be me.

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 16:59:03 GMT

I haven't updated in a long time.
A lot has changed.. thing I never thought would happen are happening.
2007 was one hell of a year.
I will never forget it, but it is in the past.

2008 is very different.
I have made a decision that I never thought I could make.. and it will change everything.
I need this.

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 07:21:06 GMT

my head is about to explode.

I need a vacation.

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 02:30:58 GMT

Wow, today flew by!

I have been working full time all week.. and today I was completely swamped.. and I loved it!

I got SO much done. It's actually pretty amazing.
I started and finished the champions for charity vouchers.. all in 4 hours. There's over 200 charities and I had to write out every single donation and set up the bills and stuff.. I got the project today and I had until Friday to finish.. and I did it all today!

I also had a huge project for Joe that I did in an hour.
I did all the filing.. I put away the groceries when they came from peapod. I set up for a 9am meeting.. I did so much today. Plus answering the phones from 3:30-5 because Angela had to leave.

So yeah.. It feels great to accomplish so much and know that I did a good job.
I feel valuable.
At work.. they give me some horrible projects, but I really love the challenging ones. They make me learn and improve and I have so much experience that others don't and I'm really lucky.

Also since I've been doing so great lately.. I might be getting a raise soon!! *keeps fingers crossed*

I am completely booked for the rest of the week... it's so strange. this week is gonna fly.
I'm looking forward to EVERYTHING.. even work and the loads of homework i'm about to do.

I'm in a really good mood.

Yoga last night was intense.. those positions.. DAMNNN.. it was hot haha. I think I'm prepared for a million sex positions that I never knew existed.. bc seriously.. my body can contort itself into some crazy positions. I love being flexible.. and I love my body :)

I've set a goal that for the rest of my life I will NOT got over 130.. (unless I get pregnant lol)

I'm 125ish now and I'm happy with that, but I am going to go down to 115.. maybe 110.
I love sticking to my goals.. it feels so good when you achieve them.

I'm keeping my spirits high and my mind open.
There's a lot to look forward to.

Honestly, I think that trying your best at anything is a great way to make you feel good about yourself. Pushing yourself the extra mile is a very good thing. Go for it! If things don't work out the way you want it to.. then you didn't really lose much.. you're where you are now, BUT if you take that extra step and things work out.. you have something great :)
This goes for a lot of things.

I can't take back the things I have done.. and I know I can't turn back time, but I can make the most out of the days to come.

It's an amazing feeling knowing you've done as much as you could in one day. I can go to bed and think, "wow, today was eventful and fulfilling"

I HATE feeling like I'm wasting my life.. I know I've done it a lot.. with stupid things.
It's so much better when you take life as it comes and just try and do what you can.

Don't you love it when I ramble on forever? lol

Who wants to see zodiac with me this weekend? Let me know.

Yay I can't wait to do some homework and get some sleep.. and wake up and start a new day!
I'm so weird.... this doesn't sound like me, but hey.. I like this! I don't feel emotional or mushy or stressed.. just really excited and relaxed :D
work is gonna be nuts! Then I'm gonna pamper myself and my mommy :)

Thursday.. is gonna be amusing and fun as hell.

Friday should be fun too.

Can't wait!!!!!!!

smile, even through your tears.

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 16:08:43 GMT

Around the corner I have a friend,

In this great city that has no end,

Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,

And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,

For life is a swift and terrible race,

He knows

I like him just as well,

As in the days when I rang his bell.

And he rang mine but we were younger then,

And now we are busy, tired men.

Tired of playing a foolish game,

Tired of trying to make a name.

"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim

Just to show that I'm thinking of him."

But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,

And distance between us grows and grows.

Around the corner, yet miles away,

"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."

And that's what we get and deserve in the end.

Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean.

If you

love someone, tell them.

Don't be afraid to express yourself.

Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.

Because when you decide that it is the right time it might

be too late.

Seize the day. Never have regrets.

And most importantly, stay close to your friends

and family, for they have helped

make you the person that you are today.

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 17:23:18 GMT

Not gonna happen.
I felt this coming.
I knew it would hit me eventually.. just had to give myself some time.
I'm so happy I finally got a backbone and I'm not a weak pathetic little bitch anymore.
Never been weak.. don't plan on starting to be like that now.
I feel good.
I'm worth so much more than I was ever given credit for.

sooo not worth it.

P.S. love my new icon LOL

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 07:12:54 GMT

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

I love this man!!

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 04:51:18 GMT

^^^ so in love ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

^^^ He is soooo fucking cute, I can't take it.. I was trying to be serious... lol ew

^^^ ..and that didn't last long haha

^^^ My hair likes to be in my face a lot lol.. lucky you!!

^^^ hmmmmm

^^^ sleepy head with a mohawk!! lmao <333

^^^ haha...

^^^ sleep time with his #1 pillow :)

p.s. the videos we took were amazing haha, I love us ♥

Mon, 08 May 2006 03:38:01 GMT

The Niles to my C.C.:

^^^ good times, singing in the car.. as usual lol..

^^^ I wish I remembered why we were laughing so much lol

^^^Thinking…

^^^ Licking…

^^^ I’m a fish.. and he liked it?

^^^when he loved me.. lol

Yeah.. we fight constantly.. and we annoy each other, but that’s what makes us love each other so much lol. Fucked up, I know.. but I really wouldn’t trade it for anything else.

who knew forever would end last night

Thu, 29 Jan 2004 01:45:02 GMT

Bo is hot, sexy, and all mine.
Catherine is God for making this journal so sexy.

Oh, and, friends only, you scum.